2 Pizzas leftover, what kind of party is this?

Posted by james on March 12, 2006

I'm not a catholic, but I've decided to give up extraneous computer time for lent. I still must work, and I've allotted some email and checking important things on the internet, and also this post. But in general the rest is cut out. That means when I get home from work, where usually I check email, surf craigslist and forumshawaii, and then watch movies or play games, all that is now replaced by me... wandering my house trying to figure out what to do with myself.

It's enlightenting to see just how much I depend on computers to take up my time. What do I do with myself? I'm hoping that I'll start using this extra time in the way that makes sense during lent, more focused on God. I have a whole bunch of unread books (Every Man's Battle, Purpose Driven Life, Searching for God Knows What, the Case for Christ), but I haven't started reading them. I have, however, fixed my motorcycle (still runs like crap though) and attempted to fix my car's A/C (still doesn't work), clean my house, and wander around quite a lot. I even journaled for the first time in 3 months.

I just had some people over my house in an atypical James' house get together. Normally I invite people, they show up late, and it's loud and food everywhere and people doing all sorts of things (working on homework, talking in other rooms, working out/arm wrestling, then talking during an entire movie). This time not many people came, no one worked out, we watched no movie, and instead just talked the whole time. I didn't even realize how long it's been since I had that, hours just to talk to a small group of people about random things and God things. It's amazing how much "fellowship" time we have as a group, but how little we talk about the kinds of questions that are so pertinent right now. Who is "us"? What defines us? What is our goal or mission? What can we do to further that? Interesting stuff.

We used to be an offshoot service called Upper Room from a large church called New Hope Leeward. Now we're just a collection of people leftover from that, still hanging on to the now defunct name, and spread over a number of ministries, bible studies, churches, and social gatherings. Who knows where we'll go and what we'll become.

I'm really tired and have a whole lot of pizza in me. Not too bad.