tunnels and static

Posted by james on May 22, 2004

My life is in a large concrete tunnel right now. This tunnel goes through a large mountain, too big to drive over so the hole had to be dug right through it.

In japan there's lots of these tunnels. They have so many mini-mountains that they can't spend time levelling the whole thing, so they just build tunnels. Long ones. And if you're listening to the radio, it'll start getting staticky and then cut to white noise and then silence. After you make it most of the way through the tunnel, it'll start to pick up little pieces and you'll hear the last bit of the song you're listening to, or they've moved on and you have to try to figure out if you like the new song as much as the old one. But yeah, no radio in that tunnel.

My life goes through ups and downs, like anyone's. Lately it's been a bit hard, what with all the changes recently. Just being here is a challenge that it takes a bit to overcome; it's my tunnel. And I know myself enough that when I reach these tunnels, it gets harder to keep tuned in. I'm illuminated by orange lights, pulsing by and leading the way towards the eventual end of this tunnel and that proverbial light. And I'm a bit out of touch, a bit overwhelmed by static, and sometimes silent.

But I'm still heading forward, so eventually it'll have to lighten up, the orange will fade to natural light, and the static will give way to normal outside contact. But I guess right now I might still be somewhere in the middle. Until you see that light, it's a bit hard to know how far through you are.